Monday, 29 December 2014

Celebrate Life

Life is a 'school of hard knocks'
especially when we lose someone or something we hold dear.
 This article explores the best way to handle the gaping hole that opens up when that happens.

For Peter and Margaret 2014

Another look at Life

Christmas is a time of New Beginnings and of Celebration here on earth, but it's also a time when many people leave the planet. Loss of someone close or even something you hold dear is never easy, but an especially hard knock during the festive season.  This year I have also lost two very good and much cherished friends, although as a medium, I have no doubts that they live on. But we too have to learn to 'live on', or to thrive rather than just survive in the shadow of that loss.

I believe our loved ones are quite literally 're-born' into a 'Higher Life'; one that doesn't need a physical body, and that they can communicate through a medium like me to give proof of survival. No-one wants to have their loved ones suffer any longer than necessary so I am always happy to celebrate their lives and wish them well on their journey. And I have no doubt that once they  reach the other side of life, they quickly thrive in their new surroundings, and come back to proclaim it loud and clear. But what about us, the ones that are left behind? How can we learn to thrive rather than exist in the shadows of our own lives. After all, death is one of the biggest taboos here in western society even before it comes to call on each of us. How can we learn to thrive rather than merely survive when our lives have been touched by its shadow?

Life just doesn't go on as normal of course. It can't do, the person or thing we care most about is no longer with us.  So not only are our loved ones beginning a new journey, 'on the other side of life' (where they are healed and supported by the Spirit World as they get to know the place), we are also on a journey as well, and it's important we acknowledge it.


They call it a transition. Our loved ones make the transition into the Higher Life but we make a transition too even though we hang around on earth for at least a while longer The transition is a step by step process during which we ease ourselves into our new lives. It involves coming to terms with all the emotions, doubts and fear that have been stirred up as we get to grips with our loss.

In short it involves taking a long hard look at the gap rather than trying to shy away from it, and cracking our beliefs about death wide open.

Death as a process

And when we dare to face our fears an amazing thing happen; a whole new way of life opens up. As one door closes in Life, another one really does open (into a Higher Life). We can't just gloss over the gap and pretend it's not there; it's a stairway meant to be climbed one step at a time until you reach the top of your own personal mountain, and life will never be the same again. Life and Death are just different sides to the same coin....and the gap is your passport to a deeper understanding of death as an ongoing part of the natural process of life, rather than a door being slammed shut in your face. 
We really can't die.
There is no such thing as death.
Death is a process,
 a gradual letting go into a higher state of awareness
It isn't a once off happening.
But something that continues 
in one way or another throughout our lives.
It's rehearsal for the big one
when we can finally let go of our physical body
onto the next rung of existence.

* PS 
As a medium, I believe the greatest gift we can give our clients is the gift of hope, and the opportunity to look at life from a different perspective.  Whilst it doesn't deaden the pain of that loss, it does opening up an avenue of hope and a deeper understanding of life.

Gillian Holland December 2014

Saturday, 13 December 2014

Riding the Wave - letting life be your guide

Ride the Wave of Life - when caring can be too much!

When we care too much

Life grinds to a halt when we care too much and aren't prepared to take risks.

My first ride on the roller coaster at Chessington was a real revelation, teaching me a great deal about life and the way we approach it.  Roller Coasters were something I always avoided well into adult life.  When I finally steeled myself to do it,  I had a whale of a time, screaming much louder than anyone else on board,that's including the kids. Of course I clambered back on again and again and again, still screaming half fearfully, half in exhilaration ending the day with a red, raw throat. In spite of all that, I was thoroughly pleased with myself. 'I felt the fear, and did it anyway!' What's more it really did help my confidence.

Life's like that; full of things we would rather avoid but sometimes just can't afford to  Being aware of and accepting our feelings really does help up through, Life is indeed just like a wave with a whole series of  ups and downs. Embracing the wave gives us the confidence to embrace life. Trying to battle against the tide is self-defeating.

We need to befriend our feelings and fears. There's no point battling upstream when the currents carrying you in the other direction.  Each wave has a natural ebb and flow, just like any roller coaster, so we need to appreciate the ebb as much as the flow.  When we are aware of our feelings and what they mean for us, we can use the ebb to let go of our fears and use the momentum to move us forward.

Feelings are just that feelings..They are our friends. We've given them labels according to their intensity, but in reality its denying what we are feeling makes us feel worse and ready to explode at the slightest thing.

We dam our feelings up when we care too much what other people think. And we dam up our feelings to avoid being ridiculed.

It is a tough one this, but when we care too much about what other people think, we are not being true to ourselves.And we are damming up our feelings, caring so much about other people but at our own expense.

When I was on that roller coaster, each dip created enough momentum to keep moving forward. Life's like! Expressing our feelings creates the energy to let us move forward. I did lots of screaming as I have already said.This probably wasn't to everyone else's liking, but it was me being me.  It was me celebrating life like crazy. It was me living life on the edge pushing back my boundaries.  It was me having a whale of a time.  It was me embracing the wave, overcoming my fears and enjoying the ride.

We wrap ourselves up in a tightly spun cocoon in a bid for security, but this kind of security is claustrophobic, and also destructive. Letting go of our inhibitions and fears, expressing ourselves fully is the ebb, the force lying behind the flow. Ebb and flow go together like two peas in a pod. Security tell us to play it safe but also masks our fears, having us so bound up in a rigid cocoon that we cannot move forward 

So one question, do you care enough about yourself to let go or at least consider letting go of the fears that have stopped you from riding the wave of your own life. it's time we stopped and listened to the whispers of our Soul. I'd say you are worth it.  I'd say we are all worth it.  

Wednesday, 10 December 2014

The greatest gift

The greatest gift you can give yourself is plenty of ME time.

Christmas isn't meant to be a feeding frenzy, although it's fast becoming one.  Just as we cram too much busy busy activity into the big festive build up, we cram just as much into our mouths to keep us going, losing our enjoyment of food and eating for all the wrong reasons! Life is meant to be savoured, and so is food.

The greatest gift you can give yourself, especially at this time of the year is plenty, and I do mean plenty of ME time. Especially at Christmas where food stares out at you from every available corner - tempting, ever tempting.  

Everyone wants to look their best for Christmas, and I am certainly no exception, so I have embarked on what I think is a really healthy 'diet' and am doing rather well at the moment even if I do say so myself.

Yesterday I had a bit of a hiccup.  You could say too much on my plate, and you would be right!!!
Now I am not talking about loading all those tempting naughty but nice foods, I'm talking about being snowed under by all the bits and pieces fighting for my attention as the Big Day draws ever closer. 

I found my thoughts and taste buds gasping for something sweet to satisfy those constant cravings and take some of the pressure off my shoulders.  Luckily I stopped myself in time, thanks to my SW friends who told me, and quite rightly that I would only regret it.... 

So I'm a comfort eater, using food not to nourish me, but to deaden my worries about getting it all done in time, trying to be perfect. So I started to pick mindless at my food, although eating in this way gives me no satisfaction or pleasure.  I was struck that something which is delicious, tempting and nourishing can be turned into something which is completely destructive, if we just keep ramming it down our throats.  Its a compulsion.

So where does the ME time come in?  I have made a pact with myself to be more observant, to watch out for the signs of overload which could ruin my diet leaving me wanting to kick myself.

I am making the effort to factor in some down-time, rather than keep pushing forward in ever decreasing circle, to develop a positive rather than a negative relationship with food.  Appreciate what I am eating, every morsel....and stopping when I've had enough. I really want to dispense with that awful bloated feeling that leaves me shattered and feeling very very guilty.

 I think we are all guilty of mindless, and potentially destructive eating when we slip into overdrive.  And Christmas is certainly the season when most of us do it. It's like we a heave a collective sigh of relieve, when we sit down to Christmas dinner, and then just go into mindless feeding frenzy mode.  How much do we actually enjoy and how much do we actually taste when this happens.

Food is meant to energise.  When eaten consciously and sensibly, its the fuel we need to embrace and enjoy life fully. Mindless eating does just the reverse. It is not so much what you do, it is truthfully the way that you do it.  Life just like food is meant to be savoured.

Gillian Holland 2014

Tuesday, 25 November 2014

Between Heaven and Earth

Metatron as he appears in Doreen Virtues Archangel Cards (Hay House)

Image my surprise when I discovered
my new Guide has a 
dual personality?

Imagine my surprise when I found out that my new Guide wasn't all that I thought he was.  To the contrary he was more than I could ever possibly imagine!

I realised I was working with another Guide after a workshop I ran down at Summertown, North Oxford called 'People, Pyramids and Spirit!'  Working with a new Guide is always magical, so I set about getting to know him a bit better through meditation.

When a new Guide comes forward, it usually means that your connection to the Spirit World has gone up a notch, and that you can expect some changes in the way you work. Never in a million years had I expected things to unfold in the way they did. And it took me a while to 'twig' what was going on....dah...but then that's me!

Now I should mention my new Guides name just happened to be Enoch. This is the same Enoch who went on to become Archangel Metatron, one of the few Archangels that had been a human to start with.  Its not that I am any different from anyone else, but that Metatron as an Archangel is drawing really close to assist the earth plane at the moment.

But, me being me, I really began to think I had lost the plot, so thought I had better ask the powers that be for clarification and this is what I got:-

You are working to create the best possible balance between Heaven and Earth.

As Enoch,
 I represent humanity, and the Earth plane.

As Metatron
 I represent the Angelic Kingdom and Source energy.

Put these two things together
and you have the perfect balance between Heaven and Earth.

All of humanity is working towards
creating the perfect balance
between Heaven and Earth right now.

Humanity is in the process of reclaiming 
this connection.

It resides in the heart of all humanity.

It is known as the Rainbow Warrior!

'The Light that has perfect balance between heaven and earth'

All Children of the earth carry this light within them!

Reclaiming your Inner Rainbow Warrior

Step One

Doreen Virtue's card above shows us how important it is to keep the 7 energy centres situated along the spine clear in our quest for perfect balance as we reclaim our own Warriorship

Each chakra is associated with one of the Rainbow Colours which added together become pure Light.

Root Chakra   Red - situated at the base of the Spine

Sacral Chakra - Orange - situated around the navel

Solar Plexus - Yellow - situated underneath the rib cage just above waist level

Heart - Green - at the level of your heart 

Throat - Turquoise Blue - at the throat

Third eye - Indigo - situated between the eyebrows

Crown Chakra - Violet - at top of head

Visualising the colours of each chakra along the spine helps achieve better balance and therefore a clearer connection with the realms of Spirit.  For mediums this exercise is known as sitting in the power.  As mediums we need to be able to maintain a steady, clear and yet gentle focus to make sure we get the entire thread of conversation from Spirit.  

But this is an exercise we can all do as individuals because it enhances our connection to our Intuition - the female aspect of ourSelves, which is coming back into its own as we dip further into this, the New Age of Aquarius.

Stay tuned to hear more!

Gillian Holland 2014 copyright

Monday, 17 November 2014

Living with the Angels

Living with the Angels

I believe messages come in many different ways. It's not so much the words themselves but the feeling behind them which makes all the difference. I believe a 'silent' message can be much more empowering and therefore healing and set you back on the right track when necessary.

Feelings are not so much the icing on the cake but the corner stone of any message whether its from the Angels or from our loved ones.

When Spirit or the Angels come to call, they quite literally open a doorway into the higher dimensions. The doorway very much depends on the needs of that particular person at that time, but it is always loving and therefore healing as well as inspiring. Its amazing the way the energy shifts according to who's communicating.

Sometimes we need to know some-one's in our corner when we need them. Then there's nothing like feeling the comfort of Angelic wings enfolding us .  I, for one, have been known to shed a tear or two when that happens. 

When we feel vulnerable, we very often want to be told what to do but that isn't very often the best way forward and part of my work is to ensure that people take personal responsibility for their life.

The amazing thing is wordless messages can put you back in touch with your own inner knowing and that's the most important thing. After all Uncle Bert or Aunty Elsie may want to give you their advice, but if it wasn't right for you when they where here on earth, would it really be any different for you now.

Thursday, 3 April 2014

Archangel Azrael

Azreal - the Archangel of Transition to the Higher Life

Archangel Azreal - Changes

I lost a very good friend only a few weeks ago.  And no matter how much I know about Spiritualism and life hereafter, I still feel the physical loss as we all do. It is only natural. Loss creates a huge void. But Archangel Azrael's message is very special. He reminds us that Heaven and Earth aren't two separate things, but part of the same whole.  So that although we may no longer be living side by side with our loved ones here on Earth, they are thriving on 'the other side'. 

The magic is more and more people are becoming aware of the world of Spirit and you could be one of them. Even though you may no longer be able to communicate with your loved ones in the way that you did on the earth, they are living at a higher level of consciousness and will want to let you know they are okay. But our grieving and deep sense of loss can get in the way.

That's why I think the Angels are working flat out along with  Azrael's energy to reassure us that 'there is no death'..   His energy is wonderfully calming and peaceful and very easy to pick up.  So once we become calmer, its easier for the Spirit world to communicate with us.

In that calm, we will find a peace and deeper understanding of life, and know that our loved ones are just a whisper away.

Contact Gillian

Tuesday, 1 April 2014

Archangel Gabriel

Gabriel - your reconnection to Source

2012 was just the beginning

  • Feeling physically underpar?
  • Nerves more than a bit jangled?
  • Seem to have lost direction in your life?

If you are anything like me, you probably thought that December 21st. 2012 was the end of the big build up we had all been experiencing. Chance would be a fine thing! As we now know, the momentum has been increasing every since that time, and continues to do so.  April is a particularly significant month, so if you've been feeling a little bit off balance and particularly sensitive to energy, this is the reason why.

It's not just us as individuals who find ourselves at a huge crossroads in our lives, but ALL OF US.  Our beautiful planet and all its inhabitants are poised to take a huge shift in consciousness as we deepen our understanding of our true essence.

If you are a student of White Eagle like I am and lots of the people I work with also are, you will have heard all about the six pointed star.  This is associated with our own heart chakra, but it is also associated with both the Heart of Heaven as well as the Heart of Mother Earth. This ancient symbol is also associated with the ancient wisdom 'as above, so below, as within, so without'. We are slowly beginning to reawaken to the fact that although we may seem separate individuals we are all joined through our own heart energy, both to the centre of the Universe, as much as the Heart of Mother Earth.  We are coming home to 'love'  This is not the conditionality 'I will love you if you do it my way!' but the purest Divine Love upon which the Sun, Moon and Stars are also created; 'we are returning to love.' 

Its all a bit like a giant tsunami, a wave so big that none of us will be able to resist it.  But isn't love, true love something we have all been searching for?  But I think we are all beginning to learn, most of us have been looking in all the wrong places.  True love, the light of love is written into the very fabric of our being, each and every one of us.  So, now is the time, when, as the ancient law states, it is time for us to go within, to reconnect with the love that is the abiding part of all of us. As the energy speeds up, now is the time to slow down and reflect what's going on and release the parts that are no longer serving you.

Archangel Gabriel works very closely with Mary, Queen of Angels to support and nurture us in times of change, so call in Gabriel to assist you at this time.

This is a channelled piece from Gabriel.  Hope it helps

This is the time of re-birth, and of brand new beginnings, unlike any the world has seen before.  These changes are based on equality and a totally new vision. Now is the time to realign to Source energy, the All That Is!

This is a time of release and of letting go of everything that has separated you from your true Home in the Heavens.  It is a time for celebration as the scales drop from your eyes and you begin to see through the illusion that has held you in fears dark spiral for centuries of time.

Now is the time to realise YOU are connected to all things and that YOU are all children of God, and that no-one is excluded from ITS LIGHT. 

Remember, you have never been separate from Source.  As the veil of separation that has cloaked the earth is eased back, now is to time to realise THAT WHICH YOU ARE and return to LIVE IN THE LIGHT OF LOVE.

If you would like to contact Gillian please inbox her

Sunday, 16 March 2014

Putting the sunshine back into your life!

Its wonderful to finally have some sunshine.  I haven't seen Gadebridge Park in Hemel so busy in ages; families enjoying the weather, after the awful winter we've had.

The next few weeks are going to be really busy work wise, including the workshop I am running on Sunday to celebrate Spring Equinox.

Last Wednesday however saw the first Connecting to Spirit evening workshop at Enchanted Oak in the Old High Street Hemel Hempstead.  We spent time working with Archangel Raphael.  As you probably know he is a very powerful healing angel who has his own band of healing angels working with him. His energy is like a breath of fresh air.  Very interesting since he not only works with the heart chakra but also breath and breathing.

I spent time talking about the importance of proper grounding in your spiritual work and the root chakra.  This is an absolute essential if you are interesting in mediumship and clairvoyance.  You can't see clearly if you are not properly grounded. The energy around you can feel quite murky and heavy, because its easier to pick up on other people's negative thoughts and emotions if you are not properly grounded yourself. If this is the case,it's easy to go from feeling on top of the world to completely down in the dumps in seconds flat.

Although Eckhart Tolle has written some excellent books on the 'Power of Now', most of us find that extremely difficult considering the stresses and strains we have to put up with in life.  Sometimes, we are in such turmoil, maybe even shock, that we are no longer properly grounded, or 'with it'. When that happens to me I feel really woolly headed and then have to visualise roots growing out from the souls of my feet digging down into the earth.  This usually clears my head in seconds flat thank goodness.

Now the good news is that getting out in nature is perhaps the best and most effective way to bring yourself back down to earth and clearing your head.  Why not capitalise on it now that the sun's finally put in an appearance and just take note of just how much better you feel out in the fresh air.

We still have a couple of places left.  Details of the next workshop are at the top of this page.  By the way our work will include giving simple Angel Card Readings as well as Connecting to your loved ones on the other side of life.
It's great that the evenings of clairvoyance at Enchanted Oak have created such interest that many people want to move to the next stage and learn as much as possible about things Spiritual.  Look forward to seeing you there. Email me if you are interested 

Monday, 17 February 2014

Why book a reading?

Why book a reading?

Why book a reading?  

Gillian is offering Taster Readings at the Enchanted Oak.  She is an international medium of many years standing, and loves the work she does for Spirit.

  • to connect with someone on the 'other side of life.'
  • deeper understanding of your life's purpose in this life-time
  • assistance when you are at a crossroads in your life.
Taster Readings

Most people book a reading for one of the three reasons above.  You will get a better and more focused reading if you have something particular in mind.  A taster reading is a good way to sample what its all about. These are approximately twenty minutes long, and designed to give you an overview of what's going on. Later on, if you feel its appropriate, you could book for an in-depth reading with Gillian.

Communicating with someone on the 'other side of life.'
Although you may wish to communicate with some-one in particular, it's best to come with an open mind.  Sometimes, other relatives and friends may come through first of all to set the scene. So be patient. A reading of this nature can be a deeply healing experience, and can help you to look at life quite differently.

Deeper understanding of your life's purpose

This reading helps you connect to your Soul's purpose in this life-time. We all have a reason for being here.  When we are on track with this purpose, our life may flow with greater ease.  Ideal if you are embarking on a spiritual journey.  You could also get a connection to a Guide who is assisting you on your journey. If it's appropriate Gillian uses Angel tarot cards as well.

Crossroads in life?

Readings are invaluable if you find yourself at a crossroads in life, and are looking for direction.  This reading could also connect you to your life's purpose.

In longer readings Gillian may use all three of these methods to give you greater clarity.  If you have any further questions then please do contact me on

Wednesday, 29 January 2014

Connecting to the Mysteries - workshop

Exciting news about this workshop

40 High Street,
Old Hemel Hempstead

Free Spaces Remaining


Wrapped in Angels Wings:
connecting to the MYSTERIES
Manifest your dream!

  • Connect to Archangel Raphael and Mother Mary Queen of the Angels
  • Connect to your Higher Wisdom through the Angels. Understanding the energy of 6 pointed star more deeply
  • Move closer to your Soul's Purpose
  • Have you ever wondered why your dreams aren't manifesting as quickly as you had hoped?
  • Come along and you will find some of the answers in this workshop.

I am really excited having just come back from the Sanctuary at the Enchanted Oak Spiritual and Holistic Centre in the old High Street.   It's the separate building at the back of the shop.  It's a small and intimate space just right for our workshop on Saturday. Decorated in purple and beige, the energy is really so serene and welcoming.  As you open the door the image of the Buddha waiting to greet you adds to the wonderful ambience. I know Helen and Chris have put a lot of work in to manifest their vision for this centre.  I can't quite believe that my workshop 'Connecting to the Mysteries' will be the first ever in that space.

In this workshop we not only celebrate the coming of Spring, (Imbolc) but connected to Archangel Raphael as well as Mother Mary Queen of Angels.  You can take this workshop as a standalone to enhance your connection to Raphael or as an ongoing series, to enhance your connection to your Inner Wisdom
There'll be visualisations and mediations throughout the day.  Mp3 recording to listen to the tracks at home afterwards.
Book the last remaining spaces now

Look forward to seeing you then.  Don't miss out, book your space NOW

Monday, 6 January 2014

The Only New Years Resolutions You Will Ever Need

There's just one new years resolution you are ever going to need
 - and that can really transform you life

Ever wondered why New Years Resolutions don't work?

If you really want to transform your life, there's just one resolution (or to be more precise AFFIRMATION or BELIEF) we need to stick to:- 

I deserve the very best'

Make 'I deserve the very best' your core resolution. Place it right at the heart of your life! And with this basic belief in mind, your resolutions should follow with much greater ease.

Let's face it most of us have a pretty poor track record when it comes to keeping up our new years resolutions. We usually flunk inside the first month and so I think its all down to the way we treat ourselves.

Light up your Life with Spirit, don't dampen yourself down

My blog is all about the way Spirit literally transforms and lights up your life. And yet what do we do? Close the door to Spirit, by filling our heads with much too much negative self-talk. I know from personal experience just how disheartening this is.  So much so that we are in grave danger of giving up, dampening our enthusiasm down and in effect becoming dis-spirited!

The road to self improvement isn't an easy one, but let me ask you a question, 'You do deserve the very best don't you?'

Next time you feel yourself straying.  Stop, take a deep breath and acknowledge 'you deserve the very best.' Pause in the moment, reflect on the decision that lead you to seek change. You had good reason. And yes, once again, 'you deserve the very best!' What inspired you to make this choice?

Light up your Life with Spirit, refuse to dampen yourself down.